"Almost Christmas break" are three words everyone loves to hear. The words "Finals due" are almost synonymous, yet hated just as much as the other words are loved.
After staying up late all last weekend to spend time with Cora in Wally World, I had to stay up till 2:30 last night to finish my Bible project. Guess what. It still didn't get done. I can't work at night. My brain has already shut off. It was due today, and it's still not done. I'm such a procrastinator! I had totally planned to get it done last weekend, but I forgot I was going to be in Walla Walla. So I got 3 hours of sleep last night, and am staying up again in the hopes of completing it. But I'm not going to. I'm going to bed right now. I hate writing papers anyways.
I wonder how many times God is just waiting to help me till I ask Him, and I never do. Tis a shame. I'm sure I would get things done a lot faster. "My strength is made perfect in your weakness," He says. Well, I've proved my weakness plenty of times. I just need to give Him a chance to prove His strength in my life. Why is that so HARD sometimes? I don't know! I'm always happier when I do... I'm just struggling trusting Him right now, I guess.
Once this week is over, things will be a lot easier. Then again, if they were always easy, I would never learn to trust in Jesus. And if I never learn to trust in Jesus, how will I be able to stand in the last days? Thank you so MUCH for giving me this finals week, Father. I need it. We all need our "purifying" moments. Even if they aren't the most pleasant. We have to just keep trusting, and letting Him prove His power in our lives.
I can totally relate to how you're feeling. I often struggle with trusting God, too. I always make the most lofty intentions and goals for myself and then fail at completing them. I've realized that what's missing is asking God for His power. Then I can attain to any height I strive for! At least you and I realize we need God's help, Laressa. That's always the first step.
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