She always calls me “little Laressa.”
When I walk into the room her face brightens, eyes sparkling as she reaches her wrinkled hand to clasp my smooth one. “How's my baby boo?” she asks with a wide smile. “It is alright that I call you that, isn't it?” she checks every once in awhile. As we converse about the highs and lows of the day, our hands remained clasped, a physical emblem of the emotional connection being forged.
Our focus then turns to the TV, usually politics, sometimes a crime show. About the time I think she ought to be going to bed, I go in and prepare the bedroom for her arrival. She is a particular lady, and likes things to be just so. Her alarm clock is set for 8:00 AM, the covers pulled back neatly, the pillows positioned just right, two glasses of ice water on her bedside table, a box of kleenex, her night cap, and glasses case placed where she can reach them on the bed, and heaven help if the thermostat is not set at 71* F.
Sometimes much later in the evening than I would like or recommend, she decides to retire. As we get her out of her clothes, apply her special lotion, and help her into her pajamas, we carry on in light-hearted conversation about how my orchestra practice went, or how her dear friend from Virginia sent her a nice card, and wasn't that lovely of her?
Certain days as I work the lotion into the more intimate crevasses of her drooping figure, she starts to cry. “I'm so sorry, baby. I'm so sorry you have to do this.” I give her what I hope comes across as an understanding smile, and assure her that it is no problem at all, and I don't mind in the least. It is true. What is a body anyways?
Sometimes I look at my own legs, in the spring of their youth and imagine how hers once looked like mine (granted with less scrapes and bruises, since I'm sure she was far more lady-like). I notice her hands, covered in age marks and wrinkles, unable to button a shirt with ease, and imagine that, lest Jesus come, in the 70 or so short years it will take to get from my age to hers, my hands will look more and more like that.
She was once like me, and I will someday be like her. We are the same.
On this particular day, as we waited for the lotion to dry. I asked her what her favorite love song was. She named an oldie-but-goodie, and I looked it up on my Spotify premium. You should have seen the goofy smile that came across her face as she heard that lovely, familiar tune again! Her voice, cracking, off tune, and so precious, fell like a lullaby on my heart.
There we were, old and young, sitting in the bathroom in our pajamas, singing together, Let Me Call You Sweetheart.